Sometimes I visit websites from other portrait artists and read the information they give about themselves. Often like: “I was already drawing as a child, or I was born with brushes in my hand”. That annoys me and I do not know exactly why. Is it that difficult to write something more original?
Yesterday, someone asked me at what age I wanted to be an artist. I thought about it and said that I knew very young I probably wanted to go into art. What ever that might have meant. (First I wanted to be a carpenter, but my mam said NO.)
Now I am older, I do not exclude that one of the reasons for my choice was fear. I remember vaguely that I was afraid not being able to fit into the world of “ordinary” people. Ordinary people went to offices and factories, were bus drivers and police officers. They filled a large part of their lives working for a boss. They knew the things that had to be learned in school – and schools were really a prison for me. As a child I looked up at “normal people”. I doubted if I could ever learn to be able to work for a boss. I guess I must have been a little afraid of the adult world. That could have been important in my choices.
It sounds cool to say here that I, already at a very young age, aimed for freedom. No, little by little I discovered I had some tools to escape from what I thought would be doom for me.
I am glad that I have been able to develop my talents. My painting skills rescued me and set me free.
See also this post